feel guilty.

I feel guilty when I did smething wrong . The truth , I'm not really kind . I'm cruel , bad . I always said smthing horrible . It makes me feel guilty ! I cant take it anymore ! I need to CHANGE ! I don't want to be the old me again . I want smething new . That can make me happy , kind to other person . Not  be a backstabber ! errggh ! only my own God can help me ! ya ALLAH ! put me in the rght way ! Amin !