I feel sad.

I really don't like when my own family don't understand me. They know I'm the youngest, so they don't really respect me. I don't like it. I'm also a person, slave to God, I'm weak. I need attention from them, so I can move on forward to reach my goal. I'm sad, they don't even understand me, I'm in pain, they don't even know why I always get mad easily, they didn't want to hear my explanation. They don't even know about me. I always love them, but they just letting me do it alone without them to accompany me each in every step. Maybe I always being rude to them, but I have reasons. They think I do it without any purpose. I hate when people say to me like that. Every each thing that I do, I have a reason to do it. Not just for fun. Right now, I'm really sad.

feel guilty.

I feel guilty when I did smething wrong . The truth , I'm not really kind . I'm cruel , bad . I always said smthing horrible . It makes me feel guilty ! I cant take it anymore ! I need to CHANGE ! I don't want to be the old me again . I want smething new . That can make me happy , kind to other person . Not  be a backstabber ! errggh ! only my own God can help me ! ya ALLAH ! put me in the rght way ! Amin !

friendship.

for me , friendship are all about evrything ! we doing things 2tgether , sharing screts , understanding each other and so on . we always care about each other . when 1 of our friend is in a middle of a situation , we help , only certain of us help her . but the other person don't understand us . they also don't want us to explain to them , like they are always right . that's wrong ! u must always listen what ur friends are goin to say . not just doing some annoying faces to them . that is rude . u MUST listen the explanation ! errggh ! u need to understand girl ! this world is not yours only , it is US ! tgther! not just u ! we don't 4get we say sorry .

you're so afraid of taking chances , how you gonna reach the top .

mayb life is not like you want it to be , but if you always remember your God , insyaAllah , God will give us what we want . that is the best way , u know . i'm not a perfect person , not totally smart , not so beautiful , but , I worth it . I don't lke to compete , but sometimes , my surroundings want me to do it and I'm not strong enough to get away from it , and I just take it . that's my problem . I just want to be a simple person , that who I want it to be , like  be kind to evrybody , help them when they need us , support them , gve smething that make them be motivated , don't show off , just shut the mouth and just say if its important . don't gossip , don't tell rumour of something that was mean , smething that can humiliate someone else . I just want to be a simple person . I want success in my lfe , but i don't lke to cmpete . I just want to do the work , mayb I'm just keep my mouth shut in the class or any place , but i like it , cuz that is me . I like to be in love with smebody that concern about me , take care of me , always motivate me in life , study , that is cool . LOL . and that is me . I like to play in the class than gossiping . I also gossip smetimes , but I really want to STOP ! cuz that is reaaaallly bad and I just want to be myself . I like to sing , dance , read . It gives me inspiration to do a lot of things . like sensation . i don't like to be rude to anybody , cuz I also don't like someone talking rudely to me . I HATE IT ! sometimes , u don't like to be reminded , cuz it is feel like u can't do it by yourself , you can't change yourself to be a good person . although I always doing something late , but it doesn't mean that I don't want to change it . I want my like to be beautiful . I want to go to heaven !

i wanna see him !

I wanna see him !! I love you JUSTIN BIEBER !! I hope I've got my permission to see his concert !! Let me see him Dad !! It's ok if i'm in the green zone , as long as I can see him !! In front of my face !!

this is the zone . the red and blue zone were reserved . so , only the purple, pink , green and orange only we can book . FYI , ILOVEJUSTINBIEBER !!

Although I'm Denying It In Front Of You, But I Accept It In My Heart

HEY !
If I denying it, I don't to want to be like that again , you JERK ! I'm doing this for my own good. Not you ! I don't want to respect that person if she was a lazy person ! Although i'm denying it, but I accept it in my heart. I really hate to think it back again that I am a BAD PERSON ! I don't want to be that person again . Although I always make mistakes, denying everything that I don't like, but I try to change myself, I just need more time to be good again . Yes, I always say something that hurts you, but I don't say it if you don't hurt me first . I don't do something to that person if they don't do it to me first . If you accept that you're lazy girl, why don't you change ?! So frusting ! 

Backstabber !

in this 21st century , there are so many BACKSTABBER ! Why did they always talk something horrible at their friend's back ? Although we don't know who it is , but God know ! If you don't like that person , don't talk to them anymore . Just let it go , faaaaaaaaaaar away and the good thing you must remember , DON'T SAY ANYTHING BAD TO ANYBODY ! Just be quiet , let you and God know what's your feeling . Also , just praise them , if you want to be praise by them , too . BTW , sorry for everything guys !